Tired.

Assalamualaikum

I felt so tired in this recent days. I think its not my body who felt tired. Its my brain.
I kept thinking about PMR. sometimes it really scared me and it left a deep impression on me.
Is it just me who felt it? of course not.

There's a bundle of homeworks that never end.
I can't feel calm when any of it was undoned.
but that was not the thing im gonna talk.

A confession of a quiet girl
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Well, as you knows, i am a PMR victim this year.
i just want to express my thought feeling about pmr.

I can't do any of my hobbies such reading a novel or watching dramas
There's a voice in my mind sayin' *shahida,its not right time to have fun* , *shahida,you should study and study and study* , *shahida, PMR is going to meet you in just a few months* and i was like...ohh damn.all my activities were stunted and sometimes it BURDEN ME.

I'm scared if i can't score straight A's in PMR. The thing that i DO NOT WANT is to see is my parent's sad face.
Although they ever scold me when i get low marks in exam and although they never show their feeling towards me,
I knew they are dissapointed.
I can see it through their face even if they don't say anything and just smile.

Now, its time to study.
I dont want to cause any chaos.
SHAHIDA, STUDY.

PMR <--------- see you in October.
This time i would make my parents proud of me.
Proud of Being Their Child.
I will not dissapoint them.
InsyaAllah.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku dan berikan aku kekuatan dan kegigihan yang serta kesabaran dalam menempuh hidupku. Amin

True
Shahida Supian