Tired.

Assalamualaikum

I felt so tired in this recent days. I think its not my body who felt tired. Its my brain.
I kept thinking about PMR. sometimes it really scared me and it left a deep impression on me.
Is it just me who felt it? of course not.

There's a bundle of homeworks that never end.
I can't feel calm when any of it was undoned.
but that was not the thing im gonna talk.

A confession of a quiet girl
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Well, as you knows, i am a PMR victim this year.
i just want to express my thought feeling about pmr.

I can't do any of my hobbies such reading a novel or watching dramas
There's a voice in my mind sayin' *shahida,its not right time to have fun* , *shahida,you should study and study and study* , *shahida, PMR is going to meet you in just a few months* and i was like...ohh damn.all my activities were stunted and sometimes it BURDEN ME.

I'm scared if i can't score straight A's in PMR. The thing that i DO NOT WANT is to see is my parent's sad face.
Although they ever scold me when i get low marks in exam and although they never show their feeling towards me,
I knew they are dissapointed.
I can see it through their face even if they don't say anything and just smile.

Now, its time to study.
I dont want to cause any chaos.
SHAHIDA, STUDY.

PMR <--------- see you in October.
This time i would make my parents proud of me.
Proud of Being Their Child.
I will not dissapoint them.
InsyaAllah.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku dan berikan aku kekuatan dan kegigihan yang serta kesabaran dalam menempuh hidupku. Amin

True
Shahida Supian

Subhanallah

Tadi aku tgok TV Alhijrah
there's UNIC group.
They're with sorg ustaz ni,nama dia aku tak ingat.

Ustaz tu talking about Keindahan Syurga.
And it attracted me to watch it.

Antara isi-isi yang dibincangkan :
1) Dekat syurga, there's no toilet. So,takpayah la parents susah2 nak ckp dkt anak-anak dia " adik nak    tau,dekat syurga tu kan,toilet dia cantikk,lantai mozek,siling emas,blablabla" so,takpayah. sebab kat syurga kita tak excrete waste product pon. Kita excrete dgn cara berpeluh yang baunya lebih harum dari harum kasturi. Masyaallah...

2)Bayi atau kanak-kanak yg belum baligh,apabila meninggal, mereka menjadi burung-burung kecil di Luar Syurga. menanti kedatangn ibu bapa mereka di sana. Now,i wonder ... ibu bapa yg buang anak tu...macam mana agaknya,adakah anak-anak diorg mengaku ibu bapanya nnt di sana.Astaghfirullah

3) Bila aku refresh balik diri aku,muhasabah diri, aku rasa masih banyak lagi yang aku tak ...mcm mana nk ckp eh, masih bnyk amalan-amalan yg aku tak buat in what we call 'bekalan untuk akhirat'. aku rasa aku tersangatlah kerdil jika nak dibandingkan dgn org2 y alim...Astaghfirullah..

4) ustaz tu cakap, Nikmat di syurga tersangatlah tidak terlintas di akal fikiran kita. Kalau di dunia kita ada ayam goreng, kat syurga lagiii lah...dekat syurga tu nanti akan ada ramaiii bidadari syurga. Isteri tak perlu cemburu kerana Isteri ni akan jadi Ketua kpd semua bidadari syurga tersebut. *and i'm thinking about that for a while* haha

5) Lepastu , Katakanlah,amalan yg kita buat di dunia ni, LEPAS untuk kita Melintas seorang diri di titian Silaturrahim, TAPI tak semestinya kita akan terlepas begitu shj. katakanlah berlaku situasi ini : seorang bapa ni, amalannya penuhhh,cukup. Sewaktu dia melintas titian tersebut, beliau berjaya tiba dgn selamat di Hadapan Pintu Syurga. TIBA-TIBA dtglah isteri beliau, isteri beliau mengatakan bahawa mengapa suaminya dimasukkan ke syurga padahal dulu sewaktu di dunia,suaminya jarang mengajaknya ke surau. Lalu Allah bertanya, "Apa yg kamu mahu?" Si isteri menjawab"berikan aku separuh pahalanya". lalu allah menyuruh malaikat berbuat demikian terhadap si isteri. Tidak cukup dgn itu,dtg pula Si Anak, anaknya juga ingin pahala bapanya sama seperti ibunya, lalu Allah menyuruh malaikat berbuat demikian. Lalu...apa y tinggal buat Si Ayah tadi? MasyaAllah,dtglah api neraka menyambar Si Ayah dan ayah jatuh ke bwh sebelum sempat menjejakkan kaki ke syurga.

MasyaAllah,takutnya. Sama-sama kita berdoa ke arah yg lebih baik. Jgn asyik mengejar dunia shj dan terlupa bekalan akhirat.

True,
Shahida Supian

Inspired By You

Assalamualaikum

Skrg aku dah boleh main lagu i'm yours dgn price tag. takdalah terer. strum gitu-gitu je la.

Baru-baru ni aku ade beli gitar. 

Nak belajar punya pasal. 

Melayang rm200 duit daddy kesayangan. Ahaks.

okey, talking about strumming, aku dah boleh faham sikit-sikit cara-cara strum yang bersesuaian ikut rentak lagu. aku masih tak reti plucking.

Cemana ahhh...takpe shahida. Slow and steady

True,

Shahida Supian